Friday, January 30, 2009
my baby turns 21 today
So my baby turns 21 today. Who ever said that time does not fly, did not have a child. Of course Kinsey wanted a head start on life so she was born a month early. [ which is really funny now a days,because she is never in a big hurry to get anything done. I also don't think she is unnecessary early for anything either] The doctor told me i had to have a c-section because Kinsey was laying sideways and her arm was twisted behind her back [which would explain the pain I was having]. I always wanted a C-section and after 4 labors,I could have jump out of that bed and kiss that doctor when he told me that. If i seen him today I would still thank him again..I called her "my birth with no pain". They keep saying natural childbirth is the best, but I was very much at peace with my C-section. happy birthday Kinsey.you were a easy child to raise..It has been my pleasure to be your mom.and i loved every minute of it...take it easy tonight....you are only 21 once..
Monday, January 26, 2009
1980 was the year
OK so i was looking in my cedar chest , trying to find a diary from 1980. I thought maybe i had written comments about about being pregnant with Kassie in it. I thought i would sent it to her, because i also knew i wrote down my weight and measurements around my stomach. I thought maybe she would think it was interesting. Of course i find a 1980 diary, it turns out to be a really terrible year for me.
OK lets take a minute to reflect on something.....you know how sometimes you say something and right way you know you hurt that person feelings. You feel terrible, no matter what you say you cannot take that moment back. On the other hand when you are the receiving end of this, no matter what good this person does, you always remember the moment they were hurtful to you. 1980 i was on the receiving end of a lot of hurtful comments. I am sure my pregancy homones were playing a part in it all, but 1980 was still a really bad year.
After i read that diary, I got looking further in my cedar chest and I found a 9 month diary
that i wrote just for Kassie while i was pregnant. Even I was impress I did this.
So i do believe God gave me such a easy child in 1980 because i was having such a bad year and he wanted me to be happy.
So this all comes down to, is it good to do so much writing down thoughts and feelings. Years from now, will you girls read them. Will you curl up your lazy boys chairs and read them like they are a good book. I was really glad i read 1980 last night, it maybe realize I really am a survivor.
OK lets take a minute to reflect on something.....you know how sometimes you say something and right way you know you hurt that person feelings. You feel terrible, no matter what you say you cannot take that moment back. On the other hand when you are the receiving end of this, no matter what good this person does, you always remember the moment they were hurtful to you. 1980 i was on the receiving end of a lot of hurtful comments. I am sure my pregancy homones were playing a part in it all, but 1980 was still a really bad year.
After i read that diary, I got looking further in my cedar chest and I found a 9 month diary
that i wrote just for Kassie while i was pregnant. Even I was impress I did this.
So i do believe God gave me such a easy child in 1980 because i was having such a bad year and he wanted me to be happy.
So this all comes down to, is it good to do so much writing down thoughts and feelings. Years from now, will you girls read them. Will you curl up your lazy boys chairs and read them like they are a good book. I was really glad i read 1980 last night, it maybe realize I really am a survivor.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
the list!!!!
This is my list of 17 things
1. When I was growing up, my favorite thing to do was day dream. While I was traveling in a car,riding a bus,sitting in class, swinging on a swing set and so on. My 2 favorite day dreams were riding a stage coach and living on a houseboat on the Mississippi River.
2.Once I found a phamlet at the state Fair-where you could rent a houseboat for a week . If ever i would had the money I would have jump on this chance to take all of you on it. Going to Disney never cross my mind,but this houseboat would have been a magical vocation. People always say if you can't afford don't do it. But sometimes you deserve to do it even if you can't afford it. because maybe you will never be able to afford it.
3.My favorite books while growing up were about stagecoaches and houseboats. {go figure]
4.The first movie I seen at a movie theater was the one with all the black and white dogs in it. The scariest movie i ever seen was the Exodus. The 2 movies i like the best were, "rain man" and "one flew over the cuckoo nest".
5.Each time i visited my parents, I enjoyed that visit more than the previous visit. I enjoyed making my dad and mom laugh.
6. I really liked that my kids have blogs, I feel like I am active part of their lives.
7.The most important inventions of the last 25 years to me are :caller ID,Ziploc bags with zipper on them,Glad wear,crock pot cooking liners and blogs.
8.That I cannot describe how much I loved my kids . Until you have a child you cannot possible understand this love.
9.Things always looked better the day after....I can only remember once in my life being truly depressed.I was about 25 , Rick was 2. I was getting up every day at 445am , dropping Rick off at sitters,taking your dad to work and then going to work myself [we only had one vehicle then]. After work I would pick Rick up and then go sit at your dads place of work until he got off which was any where from 30 minutes to an hour or more. I was doing this day after day after day. I woke up one morning and thought , "Is this all this is to life." I felt terrible all day. Lucky for me the next day when i woke up the depression had move on. I consider myself lucky that I only had major depression for just one day.
10. The worst 5 days of my life started June 4, 1986.
11. I still like writing a letter the old fashion way and I like to get them. I love Christmas newsletters and i would Love to receive them year around from friends and relatives.
12.I love reading the daily newspaper. I love when my kids bring me a USA Today {without being asked to}. They see a USA Today and a bell goes off in their head. "make mom's day`buy a USA for her"
13.Time,Newsweek,MAD,Rolling Stone,Star and Bender are my favorite mag. Now that is a well balance diet of reading.
14When I dig into my cedar chest. There are so many memories in there ,it takes me hours to go through it.
15 When i was in high school 1969-1971, Pres. Nixon was in DSM, They let us out of school early to go downtown to see his car go by. We threw eggs at his limo. Remember this was the day of the Aquarius,hippies and Woodstock.
16.Friends will come and go, but sisters will be yours forever. I am a firm believer in this.
17.I have never had a brand new vechile. As long as a vehicle starts, has workable doors,ac and a radio. I am happy with it.
1. When I was growing up, my favorite thing to do was day dream. While I was traveling in a car,riding a bus,sitting in class, swinging on a swing set and so on. My 2 favorite day dreams were riding a stage coach and living on a houseboat on the Mississippi River.
2.Once I found a phamlet at the state Fair-where you could rent a houseboat for a week . If ever i would had the money I would have jump on this chance to take all of you on it. Going to Disney never cross my mind,but this houseboat would have been a magical vocation. People always say if you can't afford don't do it. But sometimes you deserve to do it even if you can't afford it. because maybe you will never be able to afford it.
3.My favorite books while growing up were about stagecoaches and houseboats. {go figure]
4.The first movie I seen at a movie theater was the one with all the black and white dogs in it. The scariest movie i ever seen was the Exodus. The 2 movies i like the best were, "rain man" and "one flew over the cuckoo nest".
5.Each time i visited my parents, I enjoyed that visit more than the previous visit. I enjoyed making my dad and mom laugh.
6. I really liked that my kids have blogs, I feel like I am active part of their lives.
7.The most important inventions of the last 25 years to me are :caller ID,Ziploc bags with zipper on them,Glad wear,crock pot cooking liners and blogs.
8.That I cannot describe how much I loved my kids . Until you have a child you cannot possible understand this love.
9.Things always looked better the day after....I can only remember once in my life being truly depressed.I was about 25 , Rick was 2. I was getting up every day at 445am , dropping Rick off at sitters,taking your dad to work and then going to work myself [we only had one vehicle then]. After work I would pick Rick up and then go sit at your dads place of work until he got off which was any where from 30 minutes to an hour or more. I was doing this day after day after day. I woke up one morning and thought , "Is this all this is to life." I felt terrible all day. Lucky for me the next day when i woke up the depression had move on. I consider myself lucky that I only had major depression for just one day.
10. The worst 5 days of my life started June 4, 1986.
11. I still like writing a letter the old fashion way and I like to get them. I love Christmas newsletters and i would Love to receive them year around from friends and relatives.
12.I love reading the daily newspaper. I love when my kids bring me a USA Today {without being asked to}. They see a USA Today and a bell goes off in their head. "make mom's day`buy a USA for her"
13.Time,Newsweek,MAD,Rolling Stone,Star and Bender are my favorite mag. Now that is a well balance diet of reading.
14When I dig into my cedar chest. There are so many memories in there ,it takes me hours to go through it.
15 When i was in high school 1969-1971, Pres. Nixon was in DSM, They let us out of school early to go downtown to see his car go by. We threw eggs at his limo. Remember this was the day of the Aquarius,hippies and Woodstock.
16.Friends will come and go, but sisters will be yours forever. I am a firm believer in this.
17.I have never had a brand new vechile. As long as a vehicle starts, has workable doors,ac and a radio. I am happy with it.
Monday, January 19, 2009
ok so how did i do that.
OK so now i figure out how to put a new entry in. It is like the blind leading the blind, except it is just me. This is turning out to be a lot easier than what i thought...This will definite give me something to do on nights i can't sleep or when i am not feeling well.
They are filming a movie here in Perry, John Wayne son is producing it. You would not believe all the semis that are in town loaded up with equipment. Someone said they are looking for extras, at 6 dollars an hour. I will keep you all in form about the progress of the movie. I told your dad to go down there and get a part. They are always looking for guys with beer bellies for movies. It is a story about abusive man, his wife takes the children and escapes. She hides out in small towns and I don't know the rest of the story.
They are filming a movie here in Perry, John Wayne son is producing it. You would not believe all the semis that are in town loaded up with equipment. Someone said they are looking for extras, at 6 dollars an hour. I will keep you all in form about the progress of the movie. I told your dad to go down there and get a part. They are always looking for guys with beer bellies for movies. It is a story about abusive man, his wife takes the children and escapes. She hides out in small towns and I don't know the rest of the story.
OK lets see if this will work. The graying of my life. A time for me to look back at everything and try to make sense of it all. I have always wanted to jolt notes down from my life to share with my kids. There is no better time then right now, before i lose any more of my great memory. This is it for now, I just wanted to see if i could do this.....
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